Mom for a Month

We are coming up on having a baby for a whole month which seems little but to me it is huge. First of all because time has flown by and second it makes me reflect on that first night home and realize that not only can I handle taking care of Wyatt but I absolutly love doing it. There are all these little things that he does that just melts my heart- like the way he looks at me when I feed him or how he will just instantly calm down when he is laying on my chest. I have been realizing more and more the stuff I am going to miss when my maternity leave is over in March. I am just grateful for the time I have now. He has really come a long way in such a short amount of time. I have also noticed how I have changed like I think I have become more assertive and sure of my ideas.
Stan and I have been working on getting our house more in order so we can feel more comfortable and it helps with the baby to have everything in its place.

Mommy's Night Off

I have been feeling the bond with Wyatt developing more and more. Sometimes it gets pretty overwhelming to think about him being here and not in my belly. My mom and dad came over on Saturday night to babysit for Stan and I while we got to have the evening all to ourselves. We decided to use the time to celebrate our belated anniversary so we went to Phillips in Annapolis and had a romantic dinner and then went to see the movie Doubt. I was perfectly fine at the dinner and felt happy that we were finally able to get out of the house but by the time we were at the movie I started to miss Wyatt. Then a pregnant lady walked in and I lost it. I started crying in the theatre because I realized that was the first time I had really been without him since I got pregnant. All that time he was there in my belly going everywhere with me and experiencing everything with me and just the thought of being alone (without him) made me feel sad. I ended up sucking it up and seeing the movie and I have to admit that I am happy I did because it was fabulous and went so fast. When I got home all I wanted to do was hold him in my arms it was like I was complete again.
I am planning on setting up a number of these little outings so it won't be so hard to go back to work. I know I am really looking forward to being with Sonya and Tonya again but I know it will feel like a huge part of me is missing when he is away.