Well I have successfully made it to lunch with very little nauseau. I have been eating animal crackers all day and I think it has really been helping. I have to admit as I was walking over to the Deli to get lunch my heart started to drop thinking if my symptoms are gone then what does that mean. But since I have no bad signs as of yet I am just going to take the blessing.
I am so proud. I am having a great lunch, well for me. I know that chips aren't the best thing but I figure I have watermelon so that balances it out and since I have a hot ham & cheese sandehich I have no worries about any lunch meat issues.
I have had a pretty stressful day at work today. There has been all sorts of drama and my hormones only make it worse. I am trying to be helpful by covering the front desk but things have gotten out of control. The employee who usually works there is always out and I can't take doing all of her work and mine any longer so I e mailed my supervisor and really long and detailed e mail about how I love to help out but I feel that the employee is taking advantage.
Her attendance has gotten so poor that she calls out once a week and her shift is supposed to begin at 7:00 am and she doesn't arrive until 9:30. Something has to stop because it isn't just affecting her work but the work of those around her. I put in the e mail that I do not want my work to suffer because I am being pulled in too many directions. My job must come first.
Other than that things are going really well. I will be having my sonogram in less than 24 hours and will post the pics ASAP!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Our Little Blueberry: 7 Weeks
Your pregnancy: 7 weeks
How the baby is growing:
Hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs — although they look more like paddles at this point than the tiny, pudgy extremities you're daydreaming about holding and tickling. Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of her tailbone. The tail will disappear within a few weeks, but that's the only thing getting smaller. Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of a blueberry.
If you could see inside the womb, you'd spot eyelid folds partially covering her peepers, which already have some color, as well as the tip of her nose and tiny veins beneath parchment-thin skin. Both hemispheres of your baby's brain are growing, and her liver is churning out red blood cells until her bone marrow forms and takes over this role. She also has an appendix and a pancreas, which will eventually produce the hormone insulin to aid in digestion. A loop in your baby's growing intestines is bulging into her umbilical cord, which now has distinct blood vessels to carry oxygen and nutrients to and from her tiny body.
Note: Every baby develops a little differently — even in the womb. Our information is designed to give you a general idea of your baby's development.
How your life's changing:
Your uterus has doubled in size in the past five weeks, and eating may feel like a chore — or worse — thanks to morning sickness, which by now may be in full swing. (If you're feeling fine, don't worry — you're lucky!)You may need to pee more than usual, too, thanks to your increasing blood volume and the extra fluid being processed through your kidneys. (By now, you already have about 10 percent more blood than you did before you were pregnant. And by the end of your pregnancy, you'll have 40 to 45 percent more blood running through your veins to meet the demands of your full-term baby.) As your uterus grows, pressure on your bladder will send you to the bathroom as well.About half of the women who feel nauseated during the first trimester will find complete relief by about 14 weeks. For most of the rest, it'll take another month or so for the queasiness to ease up. It's unlikely, though, that the need to pee more than usual will ease up. In fact, research shows that both the frequency and volume of urine tends to increase over the course of pregnancy.
How the baby is growing:
Hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs — although they look more like paddles at this point than the tiny, pudgy extremities you're daydreaming about holding and tickling. Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of her tailbone. The tail will disappear within a few weeks, but that's the only thing getting smaller. Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of a blueberry.
If you could see inside the womb, you'd spot eyelid folds partially covering her peepers, which already have some color, as well as the tip of her nose and tiny veins beneath parchment-thin skin. Both hemispheres of your baby's brain are growing, and her liver is churning out red blood cells until her bone marrow forms and takes over this role. She also has an appendix and a pancreas, which will eventually produce the hormone insulin to aid in digestion. A loop in your baby's growing intestines is bulging into her umbilical cord, which now has distinct blood vessels to carry oxygen and nutrients to and from her tiny body.
Note: Every baby develops a little differently — even in the womb. Our information is designed to give you a general idea of your baby's development.
How your life's changing:
Your uterus has doubled in size in the past five weeks, and eating may feel like a chore — or worse — thanks to morning sickness, which by now may be in full swing. (If you're feeling fine, don't worry — you're lucky!)You may need to pee more than usual, too, thanks to your increasing blood volume and the extra fluid being processed through your kidneys. (By now, you already have about 10 percent more blood than you did before you were pregnant. And by the end of your pregnancy, you'll have 40 to 45 percent more blood running through your veins to meet the demands of your full-term baby.) As your uterus grows, pressure on your bladder will send you to the bathroom as well.About half of the women who feel nauseated during the first trimester will find complete relief by about 14 weeks. For most of the rest, it'll take another month or so for the queasiness to ease up. It's unlikely, though, that the need to pee more than usual will ease up. In fact, research shows that both the frequency and volume of urine tends to increase over the course of pregnancy.
Animal Crackers to the Rescue!
I am still having morning sickness but I am glad I have animal crackers because they are the only thing keeping my stomach settled at this point. I am thinking about what I should eat for lunch. Ok I am all set with some Chef Boyardee and so far things seem to be going really well.
I am looking forward to the ultrasound and I only have two days left. I know it's dorky but it's like a milestone I set for myself--a way to ease myself a bit.
I am looking forward to the ultrasound and I only have two days left. I know it's dorky but it's like a milestone I set for myself--a way to ease myself a bit.
Monday, April 28, 2008
Those Magic Hormonal Changes
Hormones have always been really funny to me partially because I am really imature but also I love those moments when they rear their ugly heads. Like on the way to work this morning I said words that sailors couldn't use then there was a car with a guy smoking a cigar and I was getting all mad as it seeped into my car making it smell all nasty like cigar smoke. Well let's just say I was getting so mad I was dreaming about throwing that fat cancer stick right into his gas tank.
I just love when I go all crazy becasue of my hormones and just let loose. Later on I always think back and laugh at what a basketcase I was.
Its liek the other day when I started super crying at a milk commerical. There was nothing even remotely touching but you know.
Now I have a slight headache and I am feeling really tired but still revved up for some all out beef action!
I just love when I go all crazy becasue of my hormones and just let loose. Later on I always think back and laugh at what a basketcase I was.
Its liek the other day when I started super crying at a milk commerical. There was nothing even remotely touching but you know.
Now I have a slight headache and I am feeling really tired but still revved up for some all out beef action!
Baby's Day Off/ Weekend Review
On Friday I was feeling the morning sickness bug a little strong so I decided to take the day and just rest and get all of my laundry done. I started getting so excited while I was doing the laundry thinking about how in less than a year I will be folding little baby clothes.
In the middle of the night Friday night I got this horrible smell in my nose that I just couldn't shake and Stan (bless his heart) was so helpful getting up at 4:30 in the morning to turn off the fan and close the door so I could just finally get a little sleep. He was really sweet about it and got out of bed a hundred times for me to make sure that I was ok to get some rest.
Saturday we cleaned up the house and then went to Bingo with Pete. We lost the whole night but we went to Outback and had a great meal anyway.
Sunday we drove up to my Grandma's house in Altoona and brought Sugar for a visit. Things went well. I think Stan got the chance to bond with my Granfather and my grandparents seemed to really miss seeing Sugar. She was running all around looking for moles and digging in the backyard. She had fun but you could tell she was making sure she was going to leave with Stan & I. We didn't get back until like 10 or 11 and I have to say all day Sunday I was exausted. I kept saying that I didn't know what the baby was developing right then but it had to be big because my energy was just zapped.
In the middle of the night Friday night I got this horrible smell in my nose that I just couldn't shake and Stan (bless his heart) was so helpful getting up at 4:30 in the morning to turn off the fan and close the door so I could just finally get a little sleep. He was really sweet about it and got out of bed a hundred times for me to make sure that I was ok to get some rest.
Saturday we cleaned up the house and then went to Bingo with Pete. We lost the whole night but we went to Outback and had a great meal anyway.
Sunday we drove up to my Grandma's house in Altoona and brought Sugar for a visit. Things went well. I think Stan got the chance to bond with my Granfather and my grandparents seemed to really miss seeing Sugar. She was running all around looking for moles and digging in the backyard. She had fun but you could tell she was making sure she was going to leave with Stan & I. We didn't get back until like 10 or 11 and I have to say all day Sunday I was exausted. I kept saying that I didn't know what the baby was developing right then but it had to be big because my energy was just zapped.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Attack of the Killer Tomatos
Last night was horrible. I got hit with morning sickness like you would not believe. I am still feeling it today but I am trying to hold on as long as I can so I don't exaust all of my leave.
I woke up so many times last night with really bad nausea and then I had to go to the bathroom so many times I thought I was going to explode. Now I am at work trying to survive. It was bad yesterday and everything I would eat made it way worse so now I am trying to take it really easy on food.
All I have to say is I am going to lay off that heavy chipotle for a while because it did not go over too well neither did my dad's famous peanut butter & butter toast. And then I tried some noodles and they just pushed me over the edge.
I woke up so many times last night with really bad nausea and then I had to go to the bathroom so many times I thought I was going to explode. Now I am at work trying to survive. It was bad yesterday and everything I would eat made it way worse so now I am trying to take it really easy on food.
All I have to say is I am going to lay off that heavy chipotle for a while because it did not go over too well neither did my dad's famous peanut butter & butter toast. And then I tried some noodles and they just pushed me over the edge.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
What’s Inside: 6 Weeks
This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape.
If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil bean.
See what's going on in your uterus this week.Note: Every baby develops a little differently — even in the womb. Our information is designed to give you a general idea of your baby's development.How your life's changing: You may find yourself developing a bit of a split personality — feeling moody one day and joyful the next. Unsettling as this is (especially if you pride yourself on being in control), what you're going through is normal. Ricocheting emotions are caused partly by fluctuating hormones. But hormones aside, your life is about to change in a big way — and who wouldn't feel emotional about that?Spotting (spots of blood on your underpants or toilet tissue after urinating) or bleeding is relatively common in early pregnancy, affecting up to a quarter of pregnant women. It may occur in a normal pregnancy, but sometimes it can be the first sign of miscarriage or an ectopic pregnancy. If you have any spotting or bleeding, call your provider.
If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil bean.
See what's going on in your uterus this week.Note: Every baby develops a little differently — even in the womb. Our information is designed to give you a general idea of your baby's development.How your life's changing: You may find yourself developing a bit of a split personality — feeling moody one day and joyful the next. Unsettling as this is (especially if you pride yourself on being in control), what you're going through is normal. Ricocheting emotions are caused partly by fluctuating hormones. But hormones aside, your life is about to change in a big way — and who wouldn't feel emotional about that?Spotting (spots of blood on your underpants or toilet tissue after urinating) or bleeding is relatively common in early pregnancy, affecting up to a quarter of pregnant women. It may occur in a normal pregnancy, but sometimes it can be the first sign of miscarriage or an ectopic pregnancy. If you have any spotting or bleeding, call your provider.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
A New Flicker of Doubt
You know how people always say that the more you know the better? I don't necessarily think that of myself & this pregnancy. Each little fact I learn about causes all this worry to build inside of me and I start freaking out over whether I actually am pregnant or not.
I just learned all about what to expect to see at your early ultrasound appointment. You should see a black sack with a white dot called the "fetal pole" and there should be inside of the fetal pole a flicker (which would be the heart beating). If there is not the little white speck with the flicker than the sack could have grown but the embryo stopped growth, or there was an ectopic pregnancy and the body created a false sack.
After knowing all of this, of course, my mind is now turning toward panic. I am thinking what if I don't have that flicker? What if something is wrong? Now May 1st can't come fast enough.
9 days to go!
I guess I should have enjoyed my "worry free days" while they lasted!
I just learned all about what to expect to see at your early ultrasound appointment. You should see a black sack with a white dot called the "fetal pole" and there should be inside of the fetal pole a flicker (which would be the heart beating). If there is not the little white speck with the flicker than the sack could have grown but the embryo stopped growth, or there was an ectopic pregnancy and the body created a false sack.
After knowing all of this, of course, my mind is now turning toward panic. I am thinking what if I don't have that flicker? What if something is wrong? Now May 1st can't come fast enough.
9 days to go!
I guess I should have enjoyed my "worry free days" while they lasted!
All Better...
Today has been smooth sailing. I had a touch of the queezies around lunch but nothing like it was yesterday!
Monday, April 21, 2008
My First Not so Morning Sickness
So as I wrote earlier I was feeling really bad earlier today and then my office mate gave me an orange to eat and then I really felt bad. I was able to make it to the bathroomand then stayed in there for about a half an hour. Someone from my office came in and asked whether I needed anything (I don't think she actually knew who I was--thank God) and I just said no thank you and went about my business. Luckfully I was able to get some food for lunch (Popeyes-not healthy but all I could muster to eat was mashed potatos & a biscuit). It turns out they were the best choices because my stomach started to feel a lot better around 2:30 or so and now I am just taking it easy until I get off in another hour or so.
It was nice to have the morning sickness to remind myself that there is a baby still in there growing and what-not.
I am happy. I like my new office and I really like sharing an office because there is always someone to talk to and you don't look to others like you are off task at all. It's a great way to get through those hours of boredom at work. I still don't understand why they don't just pay everyone twice as much for 4 hours of work and then let people go home because I am pretty sure people usually only work about half their full allotted time. For us, it is slow right now so we have very little to do. As soon as our meetings are a little closer--look out. I am just glad that is going to be at the end of my first trimester/beginning of my second trimester.
All the girls here are so great they keep getting excited and saying "We're [the office] having a baby" and I like the enthusiasm behind it. Plus it is really nice that they know in situations like today where I was really sick and everyone really pitched in to give me help. I love NIDA!!!!
It was nice to have the morning sickness to remind myself that there is a baby still in there growing and what-not.
I am happy. I like my new office and I really like sharing an office because there is always someone to talk to and you don't look to others like you are off task at all. It's a great way to get through those hours of boredom at work. I still don't understand why they don't just pay everyone twice as much for 4 hours of work and then let people go home because I am pretty sure people usually only work about half their full allotted time. For us, it is slow right now so we have very little to do. As soon as our meetings are a little closer--look out. I am just glad that is going to be at the end of my first trimester/beginning of my second trimester.
All the girls here are so great they keep getting excited and saying "We're [the office] having a baby" and I like the enthusiasm behind it. Plus it is really nice that they know in situations like today where I was really sick and everyone really pitched in to give me help. I love NIDA!!!!
My Kingdom for Some Crackers
Today we moved into our new offices and I am totally liking my new space. I wish I didn't feel so sick though. I have some really bad morning sickness right now. I am grateful to be able to feel pregnant but oooooh Lord my stomach is doing flips. I just am going to try to last as long as I can here because I don't want to waste any of my leave. I am trying to eat an orange and drink as much water as I possibly can, hpefully that will get me through.
Friday, April 18, 2008
Dragging for a Better Day
Feeling tired again today which is good it means things are moving right along. One thing I have noticed is I have been super mean to people. I think with all these hormones it makes it hard to "entertain" people. I am just thinking if I am this mean now...look out later on.
I have been getting really excited about the first sonogram. I just can't wait to see the little dot on the screen that is our baby. Plus I will get to hear the heartbeat which I can't wait to hear. Its funny I can't wait until I get to that point where I can feel ok with getting stuff for the baby. I just am so excited to start planning the nursery and to get all those cute little clothes. This is soo exciting!!
I have been getting really excited about the first sonogram. I just can't wait to see the little dot on the screen that is our baby. Plus I will get to hear the heartbeat which I can't wait to hear. Its funny I can't wait until I get to that point where I can feel ok with getting stuff for the baby. I just am so excited to start planning the nursery and to get all those cute little clothes. This is soo exciting!!
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Seinora Symptom
I am having crazy symptoms today--it's nuts I had nothing forever and then now it hits like a ton of bricks. I am feeling hot but a lot chilly, queezey, gassy, and above all completely exausted!
First Pre-Natal Visit
Yesterday afternoon I went to Capitol Women's Care for my first ob appointment. I was so happy I was beaming! First, I met with the nurse and she explained all of the blood tests that I had to get done that day (ie Rh factor, iron, etc) . Then we went over the logistics of things, when I will have my appointments, a good exercise plan, genetic testing,etc. It was funny when we went over our history she asked me, "what is the baby's father's name?" and I was so puzzled. I just had never heard Stan be referred to as the "baby's father". It was awesome! When I finally got my mind back I gave the right information and the nurse and I shared a laugh at my realization that there's a baby in there. She also gave me my third HCG level (which was just at the beginning of week 5) it was over 2,000! I was like "yes, I am a hormone machine!!!"
The nurse took my weight which was higher than I wanted it to be at this point but I have no worries. So my weight was 251. I know that's a lot and I am really mad at myself but the focus now is not on losing weight so I just have to see the number and understand that I have a tough road ahead (post pardum). Then she walked to me the examination room where Dr. Davis would come in to examine me.
Shortly after he introduced himself, did a pap smear, and confirmed the pregnancy. We sat in his office and he calculate my EDD based on a 28 day cycle (which I don't have) so a tentative EDD is 12/11/2008!! I am thinking it will probabally be a week or so later than that but its all good- it's only an estimate anyway! He wants me to have a sonogram to confirm how far along I am and that is scheduled on May 1st. I will totally post pictures and all the good stuff so you can see.
New Information:
"Peanut" Murgolo
EDD: December 11, 2008
The nurse took my weight which was higher than I wanted it to be at this point but I have no worries. So my weight was 251. I know that's a lot and I am really mad at myself but the focus now is not on losing weight so I just have to see the number and understand that I have a tough road ahead (post pardum). Then she walked to me the examination room where Dr. Davis would come in to examine me.
Shortly after he introduced himself, did a pap smear, and confirmed the pregnancy. We sat in his office and he calculate my EDD based on a 28 day cycle (which I don't have) so a tentative EDD is 12/11/2008!! I am thinking it will probabally be a week or so later than that but its all good- it's only an estimate anyway! He wants me to have a sonogram to confirm how far along I am and that is scheduled on May 1st. I will totally post pictures and all the good stuff so you can see.
New Information:
"Peanut" Murgolo
EDD: December 11, 2008
Monday, April 14, 2008
Doubled Up
Yeah!! I just got the results of my second bloodtest and everything is looking good. We are multiplying!!
My first bloodtest which was taken on April 9th was 140 mIU/ml and the second bloodtest was 48 hours later which was Friday, April 11th was 353.
The third test (which is recommended by the doctor's just to see that everything is rising) will be tomorrow. I am totally excited to hear that number because if it can go that far up in 48 hours how much did it raise over the weekend and today?
I am just so happy that things are going well!!
My first bloodtest which was taken on April 9th was 140 mIU/ml and the second bloodtest was 48 hours later which was Friday, April 11th was 353.
The third test (which is recommended by the doctor's just to see that everything is rising) will be tomorrow. I am totally excited to hear that number because if it can go that far up in 48 hours how much did it raise over the weekend and today?
I am just so happy that things are going well!!
A Hint of the Queeeeezies
Today I feel a little on the queezie side which I am glad for because I have been pretty much symptomless and it has been driving me crazy. All the books say that the symptoms don't usually really hit until a woman is around 6 weeks into her pregnancy. I am around 5 weeks now so I figure I am going to enjoy the peaceful time while I still have it.
Stan's mom bought me all these great books on pregnancy and so I have started doing a lot of reading. Actually it was great because I have a "What To Expect.." book but I have a version that I already read like 3 or 4 years ago so it was really cool she got me the revised version which I must say is already a huge improvement. Stan's mom also got me "What to Eat When You're Expecting" which I have begun to read and I am already loving. It has really helpful advice and since I am already overweight I have to be really careful about the amount of weight I gain and what I am actually putting into my body. She also bought us a book about being an expectant father and a book of baby names.
I love how excited she is and I can't wait to have her be a huge part of this babies life. I just love all of her energy and she really has a big heart. It's nice to have her as excited as I am about this it let's me know that our baby will have such an amazing loving family and I really could not ask for more!
I visited with Paulette McMillian on Friday and she gave me a healthy eating plan for my pregnancy and I must admit I am really happy with it. She went over good choices and said that if I am having a craving that I should give into it a little so that it doesn't blow up into an obsession and I go all crrrazy.
This morning I started out my healthy eating plan with a nice bowl of Healthy Heart cereal and I am planning on getting a hot ham & cheese sandwich, fruit & either some veggie soup or a small salad for lunch. That way everything will be represented there and I will be very proud of my well rounded diet. You know I am really praying that this way of eating sticks for me. That I make sure every meal has a representation from each group and that I am always having a well rounded meal.
Stan's mom bought me all these great books on pregnancy and so I have started doing a lot of reading. Actually it was great because I have a "What To Expect.." book but I have a version that I already read like 3 or 4 years ago so it was really cool she got me the revised version which I must say is already a huge improvement. Stan's mom also got me "What to Eat When You're Expecting" which I have begun to read and I am already loving. It has really helpful advice and since I am already overweight I have to be really careful about the amount of weight I gain and what I am actually putting into my body. She also bought us a book about being an expectant father and a book of baby names.
I love how excited she is and I can't wait to have her be a huge part of this babies life. I just love all of her energy and she really has a big heart. It's nice to have her as excited as I am about this it let's me know that our baby will have such an amazing loving family and I really could not ask for more!
I visited with Paulette McMillian on Friday and she gave me a healthy eating plan for my pregnancy and I must admit I am really happy with it. She went over good choices and said that if I am having a craving that I should give into it a little so that it doesn't blow up into an obsession and I go all crrrazy.
This morning I started out my healthy eating plan with a nice bowl of Healthy Heart cereal and I am planning on getting a hot ham & cheese sandwich, fruit & either some veggie soup or a small salad for lunch. That way everything will be represented there and I will be very proud of my well rounded diet. You know I am really praying that this way of eating sticks for me. That I make sure every meal has a representation from each group and that I am always having a well rounded meal.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Laughing Gas!
My First Embarrassing Pregnancy Story
Unfortunately one of my symptoms has been flatulence. (I am laughing already). And as you know I can't call in sick because I am gassy so of course I have been going to work. Usually I am able to have a few silent ones slip out here and there with no problem. Today I had to have my last Chipotle fix so I ran out and brought the food back here. Everything was great and I finished my lunch-no problem. Then about 20 minutes or so later I felt this horrible pressure and I just knew. Well I figured this would be one of those silent deals but as I squeezed to get it out a VERY LOUD sound came from me. It sounded like a duck call or something like that. Of course I was mortified and my initial reaction was to say, "What was that" and start moving as many things in my office as I could to make more noise. I love how I had to draw attention to it I couldn't be normal and pretend it never happened. (Of course now I am making it public knowledge by writing all about it on the internet). I was just glad no one walked into my office immediately after or they would be able to tell what that sound really was.
I love situations like that because they make for the absolute best stories! Sure to get some laughs.
Unfortunately one of my symptoms has been flatulence. (I am laughing already). And as you know I can't call in sick because I am gassy so of course I have been going to work. Usually I am able to have a few silent ones slip out here and there with no problem. Today I had to have my last Chipotle fix so I ran out and brought the food back here. Everything was great and I finished my lunch-no problem. Then about 20 minutes or so later I felt this horrible pressure and I just knew. Well I figured this would be one of those silent deals but as I squeezed to get it out a VERY LOUD sound came from me. It sounded like a duck call or something like that. Of course I was mortified and my initial reaction was to say, "What was that" and start moving as many things in my office as I could to make more noise. I love how I had to draw attention to it I couldn't be normal and pretend it never happened. (Of course now I am making it public knowledge by writing all about it on the internet). I was just glad no one walked into my office immediately after or they would be able to tell what that sound really was.
I love situations like that because they make for the absolute best stories! Sure to get some laughs.
Testing Fer Sure
My test levels were low on test #1 so I went in this morning for another blood test and if everything has multiplied then we are doing ok but if things look low again then there maybe a problem.
I have been freaking out about this but then I realized that's what motherhood is worrying if everything will be alright. And I know that I just have to keep my outlook positive and know that if there is something wrong then we can deal with that information then but there is no need to worry about something that is a potential. I need to understand that this is the furthest Stan & I have ever gotten and if something is wrong then next time maybe everything will turn out alright!
Although I am still neurotic so I called the ob/gyn to get the actual number of the levels so I can let Maggie know and she can tell me what she thinks. Plus it's nice to know since some doctor's offices may consider something low that really isn't all that low.
I have been freaking out about this but then I realized that's what motherhood is worrying if everything will be alright. And I know that I just have to keep my outlook positive and know that if there is something wrong then we can deal with that information then but there is no need to worry about something that is a potential. I need to understand that this is the furthest Stan & I have ever gotten and if something is wrong then next time maybe everything will turn out alright!
Although I am still neurotic so I called the ob/gyn to get the actual number of the levels so I can let Maggie know and she can tell me what she thinks. Plus it's nice to know since some doctor's offices may consider something low that really isn't all that low.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Worry Wart
I am freaking out. I just called my doctor's office and she said my levels are low which could just mean that I am early in my pregnancy or it could be that things are not going very well. So I have to go in tomorrow to their office and get another blood test to see if the HCG amounts have doubled or not.
This is so hard, my heart is like pounding wondering if everything is going to turn out ok. I think there is a part of me who still is having trouble believing it and is waiting for something to go wrong. All I know is my levels have been high enough to show up in my urine multiple times and I think that will be good to think about. I am just really worried that as quick as it comes could be as quick as it may go.
I know I just have to keep that positive frame of mind and everything will turn out ok. I am just a nervous wreck!
This is so hard, my heart is like pounding wondering if everything is going to turn out ok. I think there is a part of me who still is having trouble believing it and is waiting for something to go wrong. All I know is my levels have been high enough to show up in my urine multiple times and I think that will be good to think about. I am just really worried that as quick as it comes could be as quick as it may go.
I know I just have to keep that positive frame of mind and everything will turn out ok. I am just a nervous wreck!
We're Positive!
So seeing as how the only people who read this blog already know, I got a postive prenancy test on Tuesday, April 8th at around 5 pm!! I am so excited, I will post pictures of the tests I took on here probablly tonight or tomorrow.
So here was how the whole thing went down, all day long I had been thinking that I should have my period by then and I kept saying that I would test on Wednesday (you know trying to put off get a no) . I had a training class on Tuesday so I got home around 4 or so and I watched some Reba and called Stan. So Stan and I talked about what we were going to have for dinner and then we got off the phone. I knew I had to go to the bathroom again (for the millionth time that day) so in an impulse (which is so me) I put the test under and before I knew it I was waiting for the results. I remember thinking "Why did I do this now I am just going to be depressed all day long" and worrying that maybe I had another large cyst. Then all the regret for taking the test had sunk in but I turned my head and there it was "Pregnant" I was like great where's the not. So I waited a second longer and was like wait a mintue, that's positive and before I knew it I was on the phone with Stan screaming that we were having a baby.
He was so shocked I loved it! It was hilarious he kept saying that I was kidding and I kept saying no it's real. Then he called his mom and his brother to tell them the news while I called my mom & Beth.
When he got home I took another test so we could be sure and it was positive again! Now I keep having the urge to tell everyone I know. It's sooo bad but such a blessing.
When I found out I prayed so hard for this baby, prayed that everything would be ok.
Yesterday I had a hotel visit so I was out of the office for the majority of the day so I went to the ob's office to get my bloodtest to confirm everything and I am praying that everything comes back ok. I have already gotten so worried about whether I am going to miscarry or if I will end up finding out the pregnancy is ectopic. I am glad I went yesterday since they are supposed to call me today with results - I couldn't take waiting too much longer.
My first OB appointment is scheduled for Wednesday, April 16th at 1 p.m.
So here was how the whole thing went down, all day long I had been thinking that I should have my period by then and I kept saying that I would test on Wednesday (you know trying to put off get a no) . I had a training class on Tuesday so I got home around 4 or so and I watched some Reba and called Stan. So Stan and I talked about what we were going to have for dinner and then we got off the phone. I knew I had to go to the bathroom again (for the millionth time that day) so in an impulse (which is so me) I put the test under and before I knew it I was waiting for the results. I remember thinking "Why did I do this now I am just going to be depressed all day long" and worrying that maybe I had another large cyst. Then all the regret for taking the test had sunk in but I turned my head and there it was "Pregnant" I was like great where's the not. So I waited a second longer and was like wait a mintue, that's positive and before I knew it I was on the phone with Stan screaming that we were having a baby.
He was so shocked I loved it! It was hilarious he kept saying that I was kidding and I kept saying no it's real. Then he called his mom and his brother to tell them the news while I called my mom & Beth.
When he got home I took another test so we could be sure and it was positive again! Now I keep having the urge to tell everyone I know. It's sooo bad but such a blessing.
When I found out I prayed so hard for this baby, prayed that everything would be ok.
Yesterday I had a hotel visit so I was out of the office for the majority of the day so I went to the ob's office to get my bloodtest to confirm everything and I am praying that everything comes back ok. I have already gotten so worried about whether I am going to miscarry or if I will end up finding out the pregnancy is ectopic. I am glad I went yesterday since they are supposed to call me today with results - I couldn't take waiting too much longer.
My first OB appointment is scheduled for Wednesday, April 16th at 1 p.m.
Friday, April 4, 2008
Baby Games: Birth to 3 Months
Baby Games: Birth to 3 Months
from Natural Mother
Having a newborn around the house will probably keep you busy. But believe it or not, in between all those diaper changes, marathon breastfeeding sessions and afternoon naps, you and your newborn might actually find yourselves with nothing to do. Take advantage of that time by playing with your baby. Here are some ideas:
Dance.
Turn on some upbeat music, and hold her close as you move to the music. She might develop a sense of rhythm while you get some exercise.
"Run" your baby.
Lay her on a bed or other soft surface on her back. Hold her ankles in your hands and move her legs in a gentle running motion as you say "run, run, run".
Sing to her.
Remember "Twinkle, twinkle little star" and "Baah baah black sheep"? It's time to get them out of storage.
Play "This Little Baby"
This little baby rocked in the cradle (wiggle her arms)
This little baby jumped in bed (wiggle her legs)
This little baby crawled on the green grass (rub her belly)
This little baby bumped her head (pat her head)
This little baby played hide and seek (put your face close to her face)
Where's that little baby? (hide your face with your hands)
Ooooh, peek! (show your face, then cover it)
Ooooh, peek! (show your face again)
Quick Tip: Jot these suggestions down on some notecards and stash them away in the couch or some place nearby to pull out when you have a lull in the action
from Natural Mother
Having a newborn around the house will probably keep you busy. But believe it or not, in between all those diaper changes, marathon breastfeeding sessions and afternoon naps, you and your newborn might actually find yourselves with nothing to do. Take advantage of that time by playing with your baby. Here are some ideas:
Dance.
Turn on some upbeat music, and hold her close as you move to the music. She might develop a sense of rhythm while you get some exercise.
"Run" your baby.
Lay her on a bed or other soft surface on her back. Hold her ankles in your hands and move her legs in a gentle running motion as you say "run, run, run".
Sing to her.
Remember "Twinkle, twinkle little star" and "Baah baah black sheep"? It's time to get them out of storage.
Play "This Little Baby"
This little baby rocked in the cradle (wiggle her arms)
This little baby jumped in bed (wiggle her legs)
This little baby crawled on the green grass (rub her belly)
This little baby bumped her head (pat her head)
This little baby played hide and seek (put your face close to her face)
Where's that little baby? (hide your face with your hands)
Ooooh, peek! (show your face, then cover it)
Ooooh, peek! (show your face again)
Quick Tip: Jot these suggestions down on some notecards and stash them away in the couch or some place nearby to pull out when you have a lull in the action
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
The Power of Positivity
This is not always the easiest task I know when month after month it seems like the same bad response. I have had a really rough past year with all the back and forths that happen with diagnostic testing that leads to birth control pills and then the waiting to try game. During this time I have gone through periods where I have just felt defeated by everything.
As things have started to look up the past few months and I have been seeing steady hormone changes in my monitor I am faced with another challenge, the am I? challenge. Each month we have tried at our high & peak points of fertility, I have stayed laying down in bed with my pelvis slightly raised, taken alternative medicine, gotten acupuncture, gone the gambit on fertility aids and each month the question arises "will I be doing all of this again next month?" .
The one thing that pulled me from challenge to challenge has been thinking positively. Many people believe that being a postive thinker means manipulating yourself into thinking you will get your wish. This isn't exactly true, although I believe that I will eventually have a baby my positive thinking chooses to think of all the achievements I have made over the past year and how the contribute to my overall goal. I have seen my body go from infertility candidate to a full functioning body. Of course it took me having to face all of those demons I have built up surrounding my weight & self image, it took a lot of trust in the healthcare professionals (even when second guessing was more like second nature), and it took a lot of tests in my marriage.
Through it all I have really tried to impress upon myself the good that has happened in the past year and how "getting what I wanted when I wanted" would have forced many of those doors to shut. Despite religious beliefs you have to have faith, I know that sounds weird, but it's true. When you allow yourself to have faith in the way that your life is unfurling you can better understand all the wonderful things that you have been given. A very religious friend of mine told me, "God wants you to have a baby, I don't know how that will happen to you whether it be through adoption or carry one on your own, but know that God makes thing happen for you." I love that because no matter what you think of as "God" there is a path which has your best interest in mind. I have always seen life as a road with a million forks ones we don't even notice are there. We make choices that pave our destiny all the time and generally when you really want something you will get it, it may not be what you had planned or in your time frame but you get it.
When I try to think positivly about everything I realize that I have many great blessings from the amazing parents I have, to the wonderful friends I have made, to meeting & marrying my soul mate, my life has been anything but poor and no matter what happens in this baby situation I have been given the support system to deal with the hard and celebrate the good. There is always something that we don't see out there in the universe maybe one day I will hear that my other ovary has to come out and that I will never be able to concieve my own child but somewhere anywhere in the world there could be someone out there facing the exact opposite problem and within their belly maybe my baby.
My biggest lesson so far, trust that everything will turn out the way it should.
As things have started to look up the past few months and I have been seeing steady hormone changes in my monitor I am faced with another challenge, the am I? challenge. Each month we have tried at our high & peak points of fertility, I have stayed laying down in bed with my pelvis slightly raised, taken alternative medicine, gotten acupuncture, gone the gambit on fertility aids and each month the question arises "will I be doing all of this again next month?" .
The one thing that pulled me from challenge to challenge has been thinking positively. Many people believe that being a postive thinker means manipulating yourself into thinking you will get your wish. This isn't exactly true, although I believe that I will eventually have a baby my positive thinking chooses to think of all the achievements I have made over the past year and how the contribute to my overall goal. I have seen my body go from infertility candidate to a full functioning body. Of course it took me having to face all of those demons I have built up surrounding my weight & self image, it took a lot of trust in the healthcare professionals (even when second guessing was more like second nature), and it took a lot of tests in my marriage.
Through it all I have really tried to impress upon myself the good that has happened in the past year and how "getting what I wanted when I wanted" would have forced many of those doors to shut. Despite religious beliefs you have to have faith, I know that sounds weird, but it's true. When you allow yourself to have faith in the way that your life is unfurling you can better understand all the wonderful things that you have been given. A very religious friend of mine told me, "God wants you to have a baby, I don't know how that will happen to you whether it be through adoption or carry one on your own, but know that God makes thing happen for you." I love that because no matter what you think of as "God" there is a path which has your best interest in mind. I have always seen life as a road with a million forks ones we don't even notice are there. We make choices that pave our destiny all the time and generally when you really want something you will get it, it may not be what you had planned or in your time frame but you get it.
When I try to think positivly about everything I realize that I have many great blessings from the amazing parents I have, to the wonderful friends I have made, to meeting & marrying my soul mate, my life has been anything but poor and no matter what happens in this baby situation I have been given the support system to deal with the hard and celebrate the good. There is always something that we don't see out there in the universe maybe one day I will hear that my other ovary has to come out and that I will never be able to concieve my own child but somewhere anywhere in the world there could be someone out there facing the exact opposite problem and within their belly maybe my baby.
My biggest lesson so far, trust that everything will turn out the way it should.
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